I don't know what to do, people just default to disliking or thinking I'm weird irl. They always talk about me not caring I'm there, capable of hearing them.

It truly doesn't matter where I am, it always happens. I take a walk, some ladys are looking at me gossiping. I go on the bus, some succubi and broccoli haired faggots are looking at me giggling. Am I really that funny?

Hell even in my own place of residence I can't escape the judgemental gazes from my own family. They act like their slight whispers and different language stop that I was raised to understand stop their conversations from reaching me.

The only thing I can do is escape into my room and act like nothing ever happened. But that too gets me flak because I won't "give people a chance" or go outside my room. I can't even give people a chance when they look genuiley disgusted when I near them.

I'm a complete outsider no matter what. I feel like this pushes me into weirder and worse things. Then the cycle of people thinking I'm weird continues. I'm going in circles but on each revolution is gets worse. I'm starting to beleive they're right for judging me.

Capt. Duke,
Signing Off.